I Believe in GOD

... but sometimes I question his motives. Today was one of those times. I'll explain. My aunt S (my dad's brother's wife, or my dad's sister-in-law) is a daycare provider. She watches a lot of children, including some relatives. Well, awhile back, I worked at this shitty little liquor store and the owners were my relatives, Em and G. So Em is related to my mom's sister-in-law and G is related to my dad. Crazy, I know. So anyway, Em had a baby about 3 months ago. A beautiful baby boy, named J. Today, J and his brother went to my aunt S's house. And this is the bad part. During his nap, J stopped breathing. My aunt S called 911 and they rushed him to the hospital. Unfortunately, they could not save him. I do not have all the details yet, but apparently he died of SIDS. My brain cannot even comprehend how or why this happened. Em and G are not bad people, and neither is my aunt S. I will never understand how God can take the life of a child. Why would he need him? Why would God give my aunt S this hurtful hand? Of course, she blames herself. I know that it was not her fault. But I also know that if I were in the same position, I would blame myself. I cannot imagine the pain and sorrow that Em, G, and my aunt S must now endure. I can only pray for understanding and love. I can help my family where I am needed and lend my shoulder to cry on. I know that it is hard to be strong in a situation such as this, but I know that my family will pull together and support each other. Any prayers and thoughts would be greatly appreciated. Thank you.....

--names have been abbreviated, in case you didn't notice.