Tears, tears, tears.

I haven't slept in days and all I can do is cry. I totally and completely regret what I have done. I just don't know how to make the pain go away. I feel empty and alone. Sometimes I even get sick to my stomach. I replay the events over and over again in my head and I can not figure out why it happened. Too much pressure resulted in me caving in I guess. I can not make excuses and I can not justify what I have done. I can only wait and hope that I will be happy again. For what I have done, will hurt me and the others involved for ever. I wouldn't wish this feeling on my worst enemy. I don't see me being happy soon... or ever for that matter.